"Why did I say yes?
Why did I say yes when I could be opening wounds that never healed in the first place?
Why did I say yes when everything around us seems to be moving at the speed of light?
Why did I say yes to being someone's again when I was just learning to be my own again?
Nothing makes sense.
I'm only certain of one thing right at this moment:
I'm desperately, passionately, deeply, and irrevocably in love with you.
My mind is still coming up with dozens of reasons as to why saying yes to you might be a mistake, but just like that night when you first told me you love me, I'm jumping with you, feet first, eyes closed.
Everything happened so fast, and with all my heart, I want to believe that you'd been brought to my life for a reason.
Whatever the future may hold, I pray to God, the same God that I believe brought us together, that this is really it, and that you will be the last man I will ever love, and I will give the universe and beyond to.
If you ever see this, or if I ever show this publicly, then by some miracle, we've made it.
I hope that by that time, I would have already lost all my fears, and that the most powerful thing in our world now is our love.
I pray to God that when you see this, we're both whole and building our future together.
I pray to God that when you see this, I already am your future.
I love you, Marc Bringas. Thank you for choosing me. "
I wrote those words on September 11, 2017. I wrote a letter about all the reasons why we shouldn't be together. Exactly a year ago, my heart was full of fear and doubt.
Now I'm writing about the one reason why we should be together: our love is stronger than our past and our fears. Now my life is so full. It's full of your love, and excitement for our future.
To the man I'm going to marry,
Happy Anniversary. I can't wait for my lifetime with you.
I love you, @jmac_cruz ❤️
You are, and forever will be my 1 Corinthians 13 love.
El amor que nunca falta.
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